“Who
needs a bungalow and all the luxury it can contain in it? Buda (common Nepalese word for husband), I am
so grateful to God for such a joyful life in this little room!” blurted my wife
as we were squeezing in under a little blanket we just bought a few days ago. The weather in Guwahati had gotten a little
chillier from last week forcing us to look for a blanket.
As I
put my head on the pillow and began to think how the Lord has led us thus far; so
many things came to my mind to be thankful for.
The room where we make our living these days has a small iron bed for us
to sleep on, a desk on which my books, a computer and a printer have been making
their residence. And, it also has an old
steel closet which the landlord was planning to throw when he rented us this
house; it is all dented and squeaky when moving. But my wife bought a can of paint and by herself
did the painting; making it more suitable to the eyes so that we can keep a few
items inside. Most of our clothing and
necessary items are in various bags; shocks and under garments have found their
place in a few plastic bags.
When I
think about my wife; Proverbs 31 seems a little too stingy in describing a truly
virtuous woman. When I decided to follow
the footsteps of the Lord Jesus Christ; forsaking all and taking up my cross is
all that dominated my thinking. No other
dream except serving the Lord for the rest of my life. There was a time I thought of not marrying;
as according to Paul and my own senses told me that the person who would become
my wife will suffer in this world which will in turn affect my walk with the
Lord. But a few years into the ministry;
a strange yearning for intimacy with a wife of my own started to tug at my
heart. A prayer I prayed was “Lord, you
know me more than I know myself. I don’t
know what kind of wife would be good for me.
So, Lord, please give me a wife you think is good for me”. I must have prayed that prayer countless times
and one day, there came a gentle little lady who captivated my heart. With great struggles, I succeeded to capture
her heart.
When we
married, we had our two little suitcases we carried from our college days. There were no family members from either side
to attend our wedding. I had no money to
buy a wedding gown for my bride or a suit for me either. We were willing to be married with our old
clothes on. But a sister in that little church
where I was ministering borrowed her wedding saree to my bride and another
sister bought a suit for me. It was a
miracle (such miracles would become a normal part of our life). We could not afford a reception; just a cup of
tea and some little snacks for the guests who attended our wedding.
When
all our guests had said goodbye to us, we both closed the door of that church
and went to a house where a room was given to us by the missionary who had
hired us to take care of that little church.
The house was empty and cold. A
simple bed was placed in an empty room for us.
The kitchen was just bare; nothing in it to cook or even to boil the
water. It was a cold Kathmandu January,
and having no warm clothes during the whole day, my newlywed wife was already
shivering with fever. Hungry and tired,
we stepped outside the gate in the dark and saw a little stall where a lady was
selling some noodles. In that little
corner of her stall, we both sat on two plastic stools and waited for the
noodles. Sadly, the lady took some unknown
revenge on us and put a bag full of salt in those bowls; we just tasted and
left. Our first night was sad and
happy. Sad because my wife missed her
family in India and I had nothing to compensate her sacrifice for me. But before she said yes to marry me, I had
explained to her that I am a man with nothing worldly in my hands and that she
should be willing to stay with me even under a tree should I not be able to
afford a proper place to live. She had
agreed to follow me so long as I would follow the Lord who had called me.
Knowing
the call of God in my life; she had made that vow to serve the Lord together no
matter what the challenges. As we began
our journey as husband and wife; challenges did come. But what a joy it was to have a companion who
was stronger than I to face them with graceful determination. I have shed so many secret tears of joy for
giving me a companion who has totally and absolutely followed my footsteps even
when she knew nothing as where the Lord was leading me. The trust, the love, the commitment she
showed in serving the Lord with me made that passage in Proverbs 31 look
wanting. There have been years, at least
five of them once, when I could not buy a signal new dress for her. She found ways to mend old ones into
wearable! But there has never been a single
day when I heard her complain about anything in life. Ever joyful, ever grateful and ever
hardworking! At one time, her only sandals
broke on the way becoming completely unfit to wear. The next day, she walked from home to a
nearby shop barefooted to buy a new pair.
However,
we also saw God’s amazing provisions and abundance of blessings in our lives. Corers of rupees passed through our hands for
the ministry. Then came a time in our
life where our own earnings could have given us all that we wanted to indulge
in this world. Life in South Korea was
wonderful. As hardworking as we were; we
made more than we could ever imagine in Nepal or India. But this little companion of mine always saw
other’s needs more pressing than her desire to indulge in some little
luxury. People from third world nations
go to a nation like South Korea and begin to ask for help; especially the
gospel ministers are famous in taking the Korean friends in guilt trip to milk
from them. But the Lord blessed us so
much that we could offer some relief to our much needy Korean friends during
our stay there. A cozy apartment, a
suitable car, good paying job and a growing ministry was something we could not
have imagined before. In addition to
that; the Lord blessed our ministry in Nepal but whenever we visit there, we
still enjoy sitting in our old living room furniture of some 20 years ago that
have lost some of their legs and paddles.
Now, those pieces have become so precious reminders of God’s
faithfulness.
In our
50s, life had just entered the golden years.
After completing my PhD, getting hired by the same university, and a
growing international church to pastor; the Lord shook our nest one more
time. We had to take another step of
faith to obey the Lord’s leading. There
were days and nights of agony when the Lord told us to leave South Korea. Many a times I had asked the Lord to make
sure that he really wanted us to come to Guwahati. I even said to him once; “Lord, my wife
suffered so much in her youthful days in Nepal, won’t you allow her to have
some good time here in Korea?” He never
answered. So, we obeyed him and came
here. For one year, we simply wandered
around the city and prayed and even doubted if we had heard him correctly.
But
then, a few hungry and needy souls began to come in our lives and we decided to
pour ourselves into them. Having been pastors
for so long and ministering to so many each week; having had a wonderful
congregation to preach to every Sunday, here we were, at times preaching to one
or two on Sundays. Those one or two were
also drunkard and addicted. They could
hardly stay awake for ten minutes into my sermons. There were also few old widows but they
neither knew Hindi nor English. It was a
year of despair and discouragement. How
much we poured our strength and material possessions in the life of these needy
and broken ones, our dream of a church seemed so distant by the day.
Our
family and friends kept praying for us and one fine day, brother Puia sent an
email to me saying he was looking for a church.
Along with him, he brought his mother and little sister. Brother Puia had met the Lord some years
back. He had totally surrendered his
life to obey the call of God in Christ.
He had forsaken the world and wanted to follow and serve the Lord for
the rest of his life. With the hope of
serving the Lord, he joined a few ministers to be part of their team. But his heart was never satisfied as most of
these ministers would use him only for their benefit. Before sending that email to me, he was
asking the Lord for direction for his life.
One thing led to another and our hearts got connected to serve the Lord
together. Even now, this brother has so
many challenges but even in his mid-20s, he is a very mature man committed to fulfill
the Lord’s will. He is a man freed from
the love of money and longs to be used by God.
I felt as if I found a long lost brother!
Then came
to us a gentleman by the name of Allen who had served the Lord for three and a
half year with Youth With A Mission all over India and another year as a youth
minister in a church in Nagaland. Allen
is a soul with no worldly desires for wealth and fame. He is just about thirty but has no worries of
tomorrow as he knows that the Lord will take care of his tomorrows. Allen and Puia became our two indispensable
hands and slowly and surely some more people began to join our fellowship. But somehow, we could not break the language barriers
as neither Puia nor Allen knew Hindi or Assamese. My Hindi alone wasn’t sufficient.
Along
comes brother Siddharth to meet me. In
that first meeting, he asked me to share my testimony and we talked for a long
time. Our hearts clicked and we saw what
God can do from people like us who are simply sold out for Christ. Siddharth has a remarkable story of God’s
grace in saving his life. Just like
Puia, he was also praying for a godly fellowship with a person whom he could
trust and serve the Lord together. On
his own, he had surrendered his life and everything in the hand of the Lord and
had brought so many people to the Lord.
The call of God was so evident in his life. Within a few weeks of our meeting, he began
to interpret our message into the local language and the Lord blessed our union
with many new souls. Brother Trideep was
Siddharth’s closest friend. With his
gentle personality, Trideep also won our hearts and became a dear brother to
us. Having a very keen mind, he becomes
a calming influence among all of us who are at times very restless to see
things happening soon.
All
these four brothers have one thing in common; they have no ulterior motives for
serving the Lord. They have no proper
source of income and our congregation cannot right now support them. But they truly live by faith in meeting their
needs. They never spare their time or
resources when it comes to do anything for the work of the Lord. Over 30 years of ministry experience, I have
seen so many people wanting to be in the ministry for money only. But in these four brothers, I see my own 19
year old teenager totally surrendered to the Lord; willing to carry the cross
for the master. How amazing is the Lord
in answering my prayer to be connected with men like these. Because of these brothers, today we have a
wonderful congregation to minister to.
Every week the Lord is bringing new souls into our fellowship.
Just as
we were turning into a sizable congregation with four brothers to depend on,
the Lord brought brother Rakesh and his family into our lives. Brother Rakesh is a man who loves the Lord so
much. Over the years, he had been a
great source of blessing to many pastors and ministers. Even when he built his house, he built it in
such a way that someday a part of his house could be used for church service. As we were praying for a better and bigger
place of worship, news reached to him about us and immediately he sent the word
if we were interested to use his house for the church. With no hesitation, we made the contract for
the house. But more than a place of
worship, we are grateful to know brother Rakesh and his family personally. Along with his family, he has brought so many
members to be a part of our ministry.
Yes,
when we think about material success, we are now living out of our bags as we
were doing 25 years ago. But there is so
much joy within our hearts. We are so
grateful to God for these five brothers and along with me and my wife; we are
now a group of seven committed to seek God’s kingdom and righteousness in this
city.
Who
cares about not having houses and lands in this world! We simply rejoice in the grace of God who has
brought us thus far with his amazing blessings and we are excited for the kind
of future he has in store for us.
Thank you for sharing your heart and testimony.
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